There are so manythings happening at the same time right now, I don't even want to describe it all. I'm seriously wondering how I'm going to cope with all this. I can't be a good school girl, a good friend, keep up with my hobbies, and at the same time be the best of support for my family. It doesn't work out that way.

I just wonder why everything has to come at once. I mean, where is the justice in this world? I'm not as worried about my sister as I am about my parents, and I seriously wonder how much more oof this shit they can take. I wish there was something I could do.

Until then, I am so glad I have my friends. My real friends, that is. I know which ones of you that really care, and which ones that just keep telling me it will get better without caring at all. Or just being curious. I dunno. It just feels weird.

However, to be able to take my sisters illness, my parents stress, school and everything that ocmes with it, I'll just have to focus on one thing at a time, I suppose. I really want to start writing more. I know this blog is atm very personal, and right now I want to keep it that way. I write the cosplay blog officially, that is enough. I need some private space as well, and this small space will work just fine for now. Even though I might never read this text again, it feels nice to get these thoughts out of my head. Fwoosh, away with you.

I hope, with all my heart, that it will get better. That those incompetent, idiotic bastards calling themselves doctors will finally get their thumbs out of their asses and start working. And the shrinks as well, otherwise they can go fuck themselves, litterally.

To be honest, I wonder how long I'm going to hold out myself. Spending an hour today home alone without knowing what was going on was horrible. And the worst part is that she doesn't even know it. Or more like, she doesn't care.

I hate everything right now.